Wednesday, March 17, 2010

still kicking

I know, it's been too long
a cool photo taken by Hannah of the sunset at Grandma's

and I just don't have a good excuse
(don't look at the sign out the window)

I have 6

we're still here
boys are growing - 5 months old now and Micah is probably creeping up on 17 lbs, Nathan is holding his own at about 15.


squeezing in schooling almost every day now, but I know we'll be working through some subjects during the summer.

the older kids don't seem to have a problem keeping themselves entertained and I love watching their imaginations and personalities blossom!
Hope to be back with you again really soon!

Monday, January 11, 2010

Best gift for multiples

My life is rich!

I have a wealth of experiences

(gosh, I hope that doesn't sound arrogant!)

Sometime people ask me questions, or for advice. and I just LOVE giving my opinion. Doesn't everyone?

I received and email from a friend, who has another friend who just had triplets, and she was asking me for recommendations on what might be a good gift.

Just so I can answer this question again with out having to retype the whole thing from scratch, here is what I said:

Practically speaking - depending on what type of person she is (what she'd be comfortable with) a gift cert for a post partum doula or even a maid service after the babies are home might be a unique touch that would be greatly appreciated. That'd be on the higher $$ amount though... providing meals for her or organizing a group of people to bring them meals every other day for a couple weeks can really make a big difference between total chaos and a little bit of sanity!

I was shocked at sheer amount of diapers and formula you can go through with twins. With my two babies and 2 yr old, we were averaging 20 diapers a day for the first month. A large container of formula from Costco would last us about 4 days. Diapers.com is a great way to go for that kind of thing - you can google to find a $10 off first order coupon code.

For something that would last a little longer - we go through a lot of bibs and burp cloths.

For something more fun - I found a playmat/baby-gym for the boys for Christmas that is extra large - about 3 1/2 ft wide by 4 1/2 ft long. I had even thought that it would fit 3 or more babies. Boppy's and Bumpos are great too... places to safely park the babies is important when you only have 2 (or even 4) hands.

Sunday, January 10, 2010

My favorite time of the year

The last week has been about decompressing from the busyness of the Christmas holiday. As I look back, I find joy in the memories and start looking forward to next Christmas already.


I enjoy Christmas as it focuses thoughts on the gift of Christ to a broken and hurting world, and joy in knowing Jesus myself.

I enjoy giving gifts - lavishing good things on my children that bring them delight ; finding the *perfect* gift, the kind that the recipient is totally thrilled with but didn't expect it.

(I like getting gifts too...I'm not gonna lie. Not nearly as much as I like giving, but the receiving is fun as well)

I enjoy sending and receiving Christmas Cards, and thinking about friends and loved ones I don't see or talk to nearly often enough.

I enjoy the traditions and memories that go along with decorating, entertaining, Christmas Carols.
But definitely the best part of Christmas for me is easily


THESE GUYS!

My Dad has made it his tradition to visit for a few weeks between Christmas and New Years. I truly treasure the time that he spends with us. ...and this year, like other years did as well, his time here ended much too quickly.

My sister has also made a habit of being here with us at Christmas time over the last few years, and since meeting her partner, Chris - who grew up just south of Portland, where his parents still live - they find double the reason to get out west. I'm so glad for that, but in my own selfishness, I would like to keep them all to myself and not share their time with anyone.... but since I don't get to decide that, I guess I will share...

It was a very Merry Christmas for our family this year. I have a Christmas wish that one year we will also see my brother and his wonderful wife and adorable son...

Hopefully its not too far from your mind already as the calendar shifted to 2010. Maybe you would leave a comment - is Christmas your favorite time of year? What makes it most enjoyable for you?

Friday, January 8, 2010

Nice work - if you can get it...

Apologies if this sensitive subject makes you uncomfortable. I feel a little weird writing this knowing my Grandparents will read it, but I'm a big girl now, and thus, coming to terms with the fact that I can discuss adult subjects and hope it doesn't shock them or anyone else too much!


Yesterday, a chain drifted around the Facebook world. A secret email, supposed to only be shared with other women, asking you to post your status as a color, making a reference to your bra color. The email went on to say that this was supposed to be for Breast Cancer Awareness. By the end of the day, and into today, it really just got a little bit silly.

I admit, I posted a color status. But afterwards, I had to rethink and consider the fact that it really did little in terms of advancing Breast Cancer Awareness. I sort of wonder if someone didn't make a bet that they could get thousands of women to post their bra colors on FB. hahaha....

Today, I saw and re-posted this message





I hesitated a little to post this. I have been a big breastfeeding advocate...

but....

.... my twins are formula fed.

Before the twins, I had been able to nurse all 4 of the older kids for almost a year. I thought I knew what it was to struggle with breast feeding.

After all, my oldest, was 5 weeks premature, born lacking the ability or desire to successfully nurse. He came home from a couple days in the NICU feeding from a bottle. After many weeks of struggle, soreness and frustration, I was finally able to get him to nurse exclusively. The first feeding took 6 hours. Then we slept for 2. Then nursed for 4 hours.... and on it went until 3 days later he was satisfied after about 45 minutes at the breast. I nursed Noah to 12 months.

I also struggled with #2. She was classified as having a "failure to thrive." Most babies lose an average of 10% of birthweight in the first few days before beginning to gain again. Hannah had the doctors worried, and consequently, she had my emotions in shambles! She was an 8 lb baby at birth, dropped a little over a pound and didn't gain it all back until week 3. (I found out later this is MUCH more common than the doctors presented) Her latch needed help, but really it was more that despite her 'healthy' birth weight, she is a slender girl, and has always been healthy that way.

#3 and #4 were what I would call easy breast feeders.

I will honestly tell you that I assumed that breastfeeding was difficult, but, because of my experiences with Noah, if you REALLY try hard, it can work. It wasn't wrong if someone didn't want to try, but if you really wanted to make it work, with the right support, anyone could. I am certain that my assumptions and cavalier attitude unintentionally hurt people that I cared for. I may have been ignorant to the reality, but that is no excuse. For my hurtful words and thoughts, I am deeply sorry.

When I came home from the hospital with Nathan and Micah, I was expecting breast feeding to go well. They both latched well, and I was excited to be able to successfully tandem nurse. But a trip to the doctors office at 4 days old gave us a huge wake up call, things were far from well.

Both boys had lost almost 20% of birth weight and were extremely yellow. My milk had still not come in, which I assumed was because of the c-section. It just was taking too long. We came home from the appointment planning to start bottle feeding them and pumping every two hours, as well as putting them on wallaby light blankets to treat severe jaundice. I expected that, like with Noah, we would fix the problem with the boys and then fix the breastfeeding and continue on to nurse as long as possible. The jaundice and weight issues showed improvement within a day, and were completely resolved by 3 weeks. The nursing was not.

The twins were both taking 2 or 3 ounces of formula every 2 to 3 hours. I would pump and pump and pump and put the babies to breast all day long, and still could not produce more than 5, maybe 6 ounces in a day. I tried almost everything I knew how, short of taking drugs that might or might no increase my supply (but were not FDA approved).

Aside from the practical challenges of the situation, I was coping with an unbelievable amount of hormones. I did not anticipate two times the hormones, but quite literally that is what I experienced. Another mom of twins told me she cried for absolutely no reason at all for a full month after her twins were born.... and I knew exactly what she was talking about. Not sad tears, not frustrated tears (although I had those too), just tears... washing away all that build up of hormones.

I wanted to breast feed my twins more than anything. And I was failing. I could not make my body produce the nourishment that my babies needed.

I realized that my thoughts of it being possible for anyone to breastfeed were not only ignorant, but at that moment, I realized how hurtful those thoughts were. They had hurt others and they were now hurting me.

By God's grace and the sweet encouragement of a fantastic community of friends and family, I pulled out of the hormones, made a decision to feed my babies formula, and put the girls into retirement. I gave Nathan and Micah as much breastmilk as I could provide, which sadly was less than a month. Yet, I have found a surprising amount of peace about formula, that, I didn't expect. And I know now, that I did not fail. My children are healthy - that is a measure of success.

So, when this opportunity to plug breastfeeding arose on FB, I wondered if I wanted to join in. If you didn't know this - breastfeeding DOES decrease the risk of breast cancer and IS the most ideal food a baby can receive. But things don't always work out as they should. I am now aware of how blessed I was to have been able to nursed my children as much as I did.

I am also blessed to have a nutritious formula to provide to my babies. I am blessed to have had the experience of it not working, to know what others might have gone through - I'm always thankful to be humbled.

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

A new year

As a friend said in her blog (quoting another blog, I think) - the first post after not posting for a while is always so darn awkward. The best thing to do is just do it.

So the thing I'm seeing going around other blogs - as I slowly try to catch up on 3 lost months of google reader - is a list of 10 for the new year. I'm going to take a stab at it and make it as brief as possible - which is a new thing for me too!


What I'd like to do this year -

1.Be consistent to post to my blog, and not think too much about it being something that I'm not.
2.Develop consistent devotional habits in my own quiet time and with my children.
3.Read more - at least 4 fiction and 4 non fiction
4.Can and preserve so much over the summer that I can get through the winter with out store bought veggies, spaghetti sauce and broth
5.(cliche I know) Loose the baby weight (at least 25 lbs) and get back into the old clothes
6.Sew instead of buy
7.Play more games with the kids
8.Read more as a family and watch less
9.Learn to play the guitar
10.Find ways to serve others with out sacrificing service to my husband and children... maybe serving together!

Happy New Year. I hope to be back with you again really soon!

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Meeting Nathan and Micah

Due to H1N1, the hospital instituted visitor restrictions. About a week before I delivered, no kids, even siblings were allowed. The day I delivered, only 2 visitors allowed for the entire hospital stay. Thankfully the staff didn't really have all the details figured out and we were able to fudge around it, allowing for Shane plus Julie - to take some ab-fab pictures and be an awesome friend, Liz - because she came all the way from Boston, and Dori - one of my most fantastic friends and she could stay with me while Shane was home with the kids.

So when the babies came home from the hospital, this was the first time that the older kids got to meet them.






Precious moments.


Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Birth Story - Twins!

I know I need to get this done, not just to share with you, but to record it for myself. As time passes I'm sure I'm losing and forgetting details. I do this blog as much for myself and my kids as I do it to share our experiences with you!

This is the story of the birth of our twins.....

Sunday, October 11th arrived... I had made it to 37 weeks. With twins, since there are two babies, the risks are higher. Generally, twins are considered full term at 37 weeks, and their lungs are generally stressed more because of the increased hormones. I had been told from the beginning of the pregnancy that I shouldn't expect to get to that 40 week due date of November 2nd. There was even talk of inducing if we didn't go into labor on our own by 38 weeks.

I was feeling quite a bit like a house large sprawling mansion, seeing new stretch marks, being uncomfortable pretty much all the time, having to crawl completely out of bed just to roll over.... I was really ready to be done. Of course, I wanted the boys to have every chance to grow as much as they needed before arriving and be as healthy as possible. Not knowing exactly when that perfect moment would be, I was hoping for sooner than later.

Unlike my last 3 births, I hoped to go into labor naturally. I also hoped that would give Nathan a better shot at flipping to a vertex position (not breech) or at least to engage well into a frank breech (butt first, verses a foot first) position.

It was the week of the semi-annual consignment sale, Pass it On, which I have really enjoy being a part of in the past. I had all my items for sale tagged and on hangers by Sunday and hadn't planned on volunteering for any shifts. But when I started hearing the buzz of my friends heading out to work, I thought "what a great chance to get my mind off waiting, and maybe working on my feet for 4 hours would be just the trick to get things started". So Tuesday, I spent 4 hours inspecting other consignors' items for the sale. I came home exhausted and sore. Did I mention I have spent most of the last 4 months on my self-imposed activity restriction... couch bound. I don't think I was any closer to labor as a result, but it was fun anyway.

Wednesday, my husband told me that I needed to plan on being home on Thursday between 12 and 2 for a "surprise." I had planned on getting out and doing some shopping at the Pass It On presale, but I guess I could wait a few hours. I thought, "who knows, maybe he's planning on getting me a prenatal massage?" That'd be worth waiting for!

Wednesday night was a pretty typical evening. I ate dinner on the couch, watched TV, kissed the kids and sent them up to bed, doodled around facebook for a while. About 11 I decided to head up for a bath and bed. The bath was becoming a daily routine to help me relax enough for sleep. During the bath, I started to notice some contractions, which wasn't totally unusual. These were a little more uncomfortable, but not horribly, nor were they consistently spaced. So I figured I might as well get some sleep. If it was real labor, I'd wake up for sure!

About 3:30, I woke. Contractions were becoming more painful, but still inconsistent. Sometimes 2 minutes between, sometime 10 minutes. I decided it would be a good opportunity to pack my hospital bag. As I was working about the office, bedroom and bathroom collecting necessities, Zak came in, saying he felt like he was going to throw up. I had him sit in front of the toilet for a few minutes and gave him a drank of water before deciding together that he was probably fine and sending him back to bed. He returned again 5 minutes later, so I got him some medicine and a bucket. I told him he could go lay in my bed next to Daddy, but a minute or two later he came back and said "I want to watch you, Mommy". As sweet at that was, I knew he needed sleep and probably didn't need to see me randomly wincing in pain, so I took him back to bed, thankfully for the last time.

At that point, it was almost 4:30 and I decided we needed to head towards the hospital. I rattled Shane and told him it was "time!" But he didn't quite revive enough, mumbling something about doing a 10-man raid (a reference to the World of Warcraft game he like to play) and sinking back to sleep. Two more attempts were made, faced by a reluctant sleep-lover, but he did finally get up.

We called Shane's Mom and Ken to come and stay with the kids, but as their drive was a little over 90 minutes, we also arranged to have one of our wonderful neighbors come and stay with the kids until they could get here. I called Zelta and Bob about 5 times... knowing that they were home and I just had to keep the phone ringing to get them awake enough to hear it. Bob was actually already getting ready for work and heard the phone ringing as he got out of the shower. Zel was over with in a few minutes. It was a great feeling to know that we live around such wonderful people that they would come to the house in the middle of the night, so we didn't have to wake the kids and drop them somewhere else.

We took these pictures while we were waiting for her to arrive. We called the hospital and let them know we were on our way. By this time - about 5:15 am, although inconsistently space, the contractions were stopping me in my tracks, keeping me from being able to talk, and taking everything I had to breathe through them. Once they were passed though, I could smile, laugh, talk and you wouldn't have known I was in such agony a few minutes earlier.

Upon arriving at the hospital, we were taken into the triage room and the nurses struggled to get both babies' heart beats on the monitor. Micah was always a little illusive when it came to the getting a good reading on the doplar and ultrasound. The doctor-on-call came in to check how we were progressing. I told her that we were expecting both babies to be in a breech position, but that if baby A, Nathan, was in a solid frank breech and well engaged, that Dr. Andrews was going to let us attempt a normal delivery. She checks and said "that MIGHT be a head, but I'm not really sure. Let's get someone from Ultrasound up here. You are about 7 centimeters."

NO WAY! 7 CM?! That's awesome! I'd barely felt like I'd labored at all, and I'm all the way to 7 cm already! The nurses were laughing at me. "I've never seen someone so excited to be at 7 centimeters before!"

Dr. Andrews was called, since it was going on 6:30, he would have already been on his way to the hospital to check on patients before heading to his office for the day. He always told me that even if he wasn't on call that he'd make every effort to be there for my delivery. And he has been the one to deliver everyone except Noah (who was born when I was seeing a different doctor).

The Ultrasound tech rolled in very shortly after the doctor had checked me. Amazing how quickly they move when they need to. Unfortunately she was not able to tell me that Nathan was head down, as we had hoped. In fact he wasn't breech either. He had shifted to a transverse lie, with his backbone facing my cervix. It would have been almost impossible to deliver him with out him deciding to do some major movement. Despite my desire for a natural delivery, I am incredibly thankful for the advances of modern medicine.

So we called my friend Julie, who was to be our photographer. Unfortunately, since I was going to be having a Cesaerian Section, Shane would be the only person allowed in the OR. Shane was given scrubs and we met the anesthesiologist, who's name happened to be Nathan. I told him,

"If you do well, we'll name the first baby after you!" No pressure...

I was wheeled into the operating room a few minutes before 8. Doctor Andrews was already there and I met another doctor, who would be assisting, and Dr. Gutierrez - the pediatrician, and a couple of nurses. One of the nurses looked familiar to me. It was Debbie, a lactation consultant that I had worked with after Hannah was born. Everyone was organizing trays and checking one thing or another. Nate came in and started to administer the spinal as I continued to breathe through contractions. Within a few short minutes, everything was numb.

Shane returned. I almost didn't realize it was him behind the surgical mask. He had Julie's camera. He kissed me and took a seat near my head. The drape was up and Dr. Andrews started to work. Not feeling anything, it seemed I was a bit like a sideline observer to the whole thing. After a few minutes, I smelled something that reminded me of popcorn. Turns out, it was me... the skin and tissue was being burnt to cauterize and reduce the bleeding. "Mmm, I smell good!" We all got a laugh about that. Although I would not have said that I was nervous, I think it is my tenancy to look for things to laugh about in these situations.

Before I knew it, it was 8:11 and there was Nathan. The nurses whisked him by for me to see and then off to the warmer for examination. A minute later, there was Micah. A few minutes later, the initial exams were done and they were taken to the nursery to be bathed, weighed, measured, etc. Shane followed with the camera.

Nathan David was born at 8:11 am, weighing 6 pounds and 4 ounces, measuring 19 inches long, 13 1/4 inch head and 12 1/2 inch chest. He had little hair, and it appeared to be blonde, maybe red.

Micah Robert was born at 8:12 am, weighing 7 pounds even, measuring 18 1/2 inches long, 14 inch head and 13 1/2 inch chest. He had a moderate amount of dark hair. We had seen some hair on the ultrasound.

One of the first questions everyone wants to know with twins is if they are identical or fraternal. We were already certain that they would be fraternal, but as siblings can sometimes look similar, we really didn't know what to expect. I assumed if they looked similar enough that I might have to mark them with a sharpie, like a cabbage patch doll. The Lord knows what we need, and he must have known that identical twins would have been to my detriment. Our twin boys are both beautiful, but thankfully, they are very different. Nathan very much resembles the Dedrick family and Micah is the spitting image of Shane.

After delivering the boys, I was sewn back up, taken off the spinal and wheeled back to our room. I suddenly felt very sleepy. It's hard to say if that was me or the drugs. I was, never the less, very anxious to hold my boys. They arrived from the nursery with their daddy a few minutes after.

The next few hours were something of a blur, as the medicines wore off and new pain meds wore on.

I still got my surprise, a visit from my sister. This is particularly amazing since she is attending law school in Boston! She was planning to be in Seattle for a conference, arrived in time to rent a car and drive down for a few hour visit. I knew nothing about it... it was a great surprise! She spent a couple of hours with us, enjoying her new nephews, and spent a few hours at the house with the other kids before driving back to Seattle that evening. What a treat! I'm so blessed to have her as my sis.

And so our new life as a slightly larger family began...